What it's like in a state mental hospital?
Well I tell you. It sucks why cause I was their on a 72 hourhold and they doctor made me stay after the 72 hourhold cause of me puking up food cause I told her that I used to be bulimic. So she and the other staff throughout I was puking on purpose when really I was stress puking. When my anxiety gets to high I puke. Anyways she told me after my 72 hourhold was up she say you can sign yourself in or I can take you to court and you be here for 60 days. I sign myself in and started crying and she asked why you crying? I say cause and walked off. I had a scab and outed it off. I wrote FU on the walls in blood cause I was mad at the doctor. And plus the only friend I made left. Later that day I was still self harming and the nurse gave me two white pills without even telling me what they were or used for or anything. She just hand them to me. What if I had a allergic reaction or something. She might not even care. Then I walked off and now on close observation. So the next day came and Saturday I was still mad at the doctor so I self harm and the staff called a 7500 code and I attacked the staff. When to the seclusion room and stay there til I calmed down. The next day Sunday I was feeling sick and puked up some food then I self harmed and went to the treatment room to get it clean and when they cleaned it I yell " that fucking burns" and they grab me and took Me to the seclusion room and restraint me to a bed for an hour and they told the staff who was watching me on why I did what I did and they stated that I puked on purpose and self harm. I was mad cause I didn't puke on purpose. So Monday came and I talked to my doctor and she gave me new medicine and increase my one medicine. I did not know that she changes my meds til I got discharged. Any ways the medicine the doctor changed cause me to puke even more and I was stiffed muscle and shaky all the time. I couldn't even function. And the doctor did nothing with my meds to fix that and I didn't tell her cause I thought it was the food doing. I thought they were poisonings me. So Monday through Wednesday I was on close observation and they watch you take a shower and getting naked. I don't mean though a crack in the door but in the same room with you. Even the other patients walked in on me in the bathroom to use the restroom or to ask if I was done yet. The patients even diged though the trash for food and some will even steal food off your tray. So Wednesday I got off close observation and got to do the group's and stuff. So Thursday though Friday I was doing good. So Friday I got to leave.and I self harm the last day but didn't tell anyone. When I wax riding home I was still having problems with my meds and they never change them to fix the problem. I was at home and even my mom notices something w as wrong. So that following Tuesday to go to my doctor to fix my meds. After about a week or two. The side effects of the meds stoped.thank God.and I never want to go back to the state hospital ever again.